And You Took me With You..

Tuje Kia Khabar Teri Yaad Ney Muje kese Kese Sata Diya,
Kabi khalwaton meIn Hassa dIya , Kabi MahfilOn meIn Rula Diya ..

Kabi Yun HUa Teri Yaad mein , Meri Namaz Kaza Hui,
Kabi Yun Hua Teri Yaad Ney Muje Mere Rab Sey miLa dIya ..

Pain Of My Lonely Nights..

Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range

There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry

A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll ..

I Want All My Days Back

There were days where I wanted you back, but I knew and always will
Even the best of memories of then fall through...
Because your gone
and I did nothing wrong.
I loved you,
I cared,
you still did what I feared
left, without explanation
I still
to this day,
don't know why...
Thinking without you
I'll forever cry
You were the only one
I've ever loved
Other guys that came along
meant nothing, I hope you know.
You were my everything
wish you still were... but instead
I'm left with nothing ..

Life is an Endless Journey

Life is the journey we all will take,
An undulating adventure,
Make no mistake.

Through it all we take things for granted,
And then look back with resent.
At the worries that have planted,
And the problems they present.

Though life does have many highlights,
Some that we won't ever believe.
Moments that had always been in our sights,
And tell of how much we can achieve.

And while we all go through at different pace,
To reach our final goals.
We all end up finding our place,
Somewhere that we are whole..

When My Beats Miss Those Days

Its Not That I Dont Miss You,Its Not That I Forget You.Its Just That I never Forget You..

Even it Cant be So,till My heart isBeating ..


=)

Things will Never be The Same

I say I'm hurt,
But no one ask why..

They see me crying,
But they just pass by..

I don't understand why your love makes me feel this way,

Because when I hear your voice,
I feel weak and walk away..

You call ma name,
And I slowly retreat
You walk toward me,
And my heart starts to beat,
Faster and faster,

With every step you take,
My pain grows larger..
Because I know things will never be the same..

Lost in The Ashes of Time ..

Here I am,Lost in the light of the moon,
that comes through my window ..

Here I am,Lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses,Its you whose the closest ..

Let Me Be happy Once Again

Time spent with you fills me with sheer happiness,
I know together we will never be ,
And this does leave me in sadness,

When I see your smile ,I can't help but smile too,
You make me feel so special ,
When you look at me the way you do,
Your the one who makes me laugh,
Never am i down when your around..

You say the sweetest of things,hearing your voice is like a heavenly sound,
You make me so very happy ,but at the same time I still cry,
I cry because we will never be One,
So to stop loving you I have to try ..

I am Running Away From My Life

I hate this feeling of displacement,
Not knowing where I'm headed.
Not knowing how to react.
Heading to a place that I have created.

Slice open,
The pain held inside.
And let it slip away.
Every night that I have cried.

Let the blood drop,
Let it all slip away.
Let life slowly stop,
This life of disarray.

Foot steps...their coming,
Cover the blood,
Don't show what you are becoming.
Don't show the crimson flood.

Place on that mask,
That mask of happiness.
Forced smile...always a task.
My veins now becoming bloodless.

In they walk,
The blood still dripping.
Full of empty talk,
I can feel my life slipping.

Never did I want to die,
I just wanted to feel,
And then asked why?
To stop feeling numb would have been ideal.

But now as I slip away,
I can see things were never right.
A fake life was on display.
To the skies I am taking flight.

Why won't this life let me go,
Take me away from my life of hell..

I Always Hide My Tears

Tears burning as they fall
My soul is crying for you
Melting a path to my heart
Where love still lives so true

Memories screaming in flame
Holding your picture again
Eternity has stood still
Since you left me in pain

How do I live in darkness
Without you lighting my way
Fading images haunting my life
When I turned and left that day..



Hiding beneath tide of misery
Waiting to be swept away
Drowning waves of broken dreams
Never your love would I betray

Will you catch me when I fall
From my cliff of sorrow
Need your love to continue living
Without you time is borrowed..

Why Cant You see Me Cring ?

Watching you go is slowly killing me inside
To see the pain you suffer, it just isn't right
I find myself crying though you're still here.
One day you won't be, and that's my greatest fear.

So I soak up the moments I still have with you.
And regret the ones I lost when I had better things to do.
I know there are things I can never make up for,
And still somewhere inside you loved me all the more

This only makes it harder to accept that you'll be gone.
How am I supposed to get up and keep moving on?
You've been here my entire life in many memories.
One day I'll make new ones and you won't be with me.

When I have a question, where do I run too?
For all of these years, that person's been you.
When I have a fear, who will chase it away?
I'm shrinking by the minute, dying by the day.

How many I love you's can I fit in before you go?
There will never be enough, and sadly this I know.
For the sake of my heart and the thoughts in my mind,
I'll say I love you, one final time..

Love me for a Reason

Don't love me for what I have,
Or the things that you think I'll receive..
Love me for who I am as a whole,
And the person that I'm struggling to be..

Don't love me for my money,
Because if you ask I will truly share..
Love me for being understanding and kind,
And for being a friend whose always there..

Don't love me because I house you,
Because I would do the same for a dog..
Love me because I have faith in you,
And for loving you most of all..

Love me for seeing the good in you,
And for helping you overcome the bad.
Don't love me because I cater to you,
And for giving you my very last..

Love me for the person I am truly,
On the inside and the out..
Don't love me because the words I love you,
Flows freely from my mouth..

To Whom Shall I Complain ?

Some say I am a betrayer betrayed,but if I have never betrayed anyone,and have just been betrayed in love why would you say this ?

Is it because after you hurt my heart and split it open that when I hated you I became a betrayer ?Or is it because I wont let anyone in because the pain hurts ?

Am I the betrayer full of hate for you?
It is true I hate you but there is a part of me that wont let you go.

I still hate you or how you hurt me,but I still love the way you were and how you would hold me in your arms.

Now I feel like I'm falling..
To Whom shall i complain?

Who Cares When I am Hurt ?

Everyone hurts at one time or another.Sometimes The Hurts Are Relatively Minor And Tend To Go Away By Themselves.

But at Other Times The Hurts Are So Intense That We Wonder Whether They Will Ever Go Away..

When'll You See,How Much I Care

Never will I understand,
Why my love, denies my hand.
What pain, what suffering have you endured?
With my help, can you be cured?

My thoughts, my dreams, you re always there,
When will you see how much I care?
Such little time I ve spent with you,
Enough to know my love is true.

The further you drift away from me,
The more I feel I ll never be free.
Perhaps I should just let you go,
Your love maybe, I should not know?

My love and friendship is always here,
And if you should ever shed a tear,
My arms are here to hold you tight,
For I will always be your light..

I am Yet To be Loved by You

The Affection in Your Smile,The Depth In Your Eyes..Was never for me,I Never realized.Worthy of nothing,still i wish to survive,I look for The care,For You,I Strive..

Over Ruled by the Strong desire Of Being Priceless Like You,I am Yet to Be Loved,To Be Loved By You..

Nothing Is Forever..

How many friends have you lost along The way,

How many lovers gone from your sight,
How many times have you broken down in fear,

How many times have you cried yourself to sleep at night.
This world that we live in is far from perfect,
So many things that make it wrong,
Sometimes there's light that brightens up Your day,

But others its been dark all along.
How many times have you left your House crying,
Knowing things will never be the same,
How many times have you had to hide Behind a smile,

Live with a different name.
They say that life's what you make it,
But how can we control death,
One minute we are here living life,
The next out of breathes.

The journey of life confuses me,
Sometimes i just sit and wonder why,
Why do the people we are closest to,
Always have to die???

I Want To Quit this Mean World

The whole world is fake
The faces around us
We all seem to hate
We live a lie
Up until the day we die..

Trying to be someone were not
Not being ourselves
No matter what
All living are lives
As a sharade
Letting our true selves fade and fade..

Why cant we all be real
Tell people how we truly feel
It seems as though
This is how its always gonna be
Not having a true definition of the word Me,
Just simply acting to make ourselves look good
Not being who we are
Like we should ..

Trying To Forget You

Up until now
I had so much to say
but it's everything I've said
That's gotten in my way

I won't talk about you
Anymore to anyone
The time for that has passed
It's just over with and done






Supposed-to-be forgotten words
are still dancing in my head
And I'm just trying to "not remember"
A single thing you've said

I wanna forget all about you
Who you are and what your name is
Cause it's causing so much pain
And I honestly can't take this ..

Even When Shadow betrays You

This fear I have.
This pain I have.

This feeling of terrible hate
Looming over me.

This animosity tormenting me
Devouring my very soul.
Wanting to take over.

It whispers in my ear
Filling me with dread.
Clutching my shoulders
Pushing me over the edge.

This Shadow was born
In Darkness
It lives in Darkness.

This Shadow I fear.
This Shadow is Me ..=(

My Destiny Always Deceives Me

The ultimate pain of solitude and silence
Broken by the sounds of whimpering
Blood is everywhere
Spelling out the horror of what happened
Telling no lies
And giving no explanation

Fear overwhelms the victim
Who's sitting in the corner
The blade lays on the floor
Covered in red liquid
The victim is dying
But she's enjoying every second ..

Tell me What Was My Fault ?

Where are you when I need you most?
You disappeared into the darkness
You left nothing behind but your memory
And for me to wait for you

Your heartfelt spirit is absent now
The smiles have wiped off the faces
Of the people you deserted here
You caused internal forever pain

I, the one you loved am crippled
Because of your sudden vacation
Your vacation that would last a lifetime
To a secret resort I will never know of

What made you decide to change your mind?
You made me feel I wasn't good enough for you
Maybe that is true, maybe it is not
But now, how will I ever know?

I have been trying to thrust your memory aside
So I could get on with my life
I have tried to love someone other than you
Yet, somehow you remain the main focus

One Day You'll Miss My Presence

Upon my pillowcase,
Soaked with salty tears
Is perched a diary,
Filled with forgotten fears

Alongside the terrors
Ring a bell of gold
Inside a marble tower
My story will unfold
Pale stars trail behind
A long forgotton path
Memories are erased
And unto me is wrath

The room echos now
with the haunting voice of me
Calling from the diary
Reaching into night to see
A smudged world
where without my sorrow
Without my love
Life sings bitter and hollow ..

Once Upon a Time ..

Once upon a time..
..I loved the past
But now I've gone forward...
I've realized I cannot love the past while I'm in the present, so I let go...


I let go of those memories that held me captive for so long..
Those dreams I once knew that were brought to life by you,
Now are only there to help me fall asleep at night
I am going on by myself..

I am going forward into my future with hopes that my new dreams will someday come true just like you had done for me..

Love is a Name Of Sacrifice

I will live a life of sorrow
so you can be happy tomorrow
all your pains will become mine
the pains you had in your past times

Might as well be my fault,upon ending
still trying to consume the words your sending
I know i need you in my life
since your happy,i'll replace you with a knife

My life is going to change since youve gone away
words are clustered together,never will i say
feels like my soulmate left me alone
when your gone,my mind does nothing but roam

I see you in my eyes, i cannot belive your smile
I see you,as i lay upon tiles
my sacrifice of love is you
It is one worthy and true ..

If I Could ..

If I Could Fly
I'd Show To You The Sky
I'd Take You To The Stars
We Could Make Out On Mars

If I could Breath Under The Sea
We Could Hang Out With The Dolphins And Join Them For Tea
I'd Find For You The Biggest Pearl
Happy In Knowing You Were My Girl

If I could Travel Through Time
I'd Go Back To When You Were Mine
I'd Stop Myself Messing Up And Treating You Bad
And Throwing Away The Best Thing I Ever Had

Come to Me ,Dont ever Go Away

Where have U gone?!
The one that was always there
The one i depended on

With everyday that goes by
I feel we drift apart
Further and further away
But forever in my heart

Please come back to me
And don't leave me alone
I feel so empty
I feel so cold

I love you i do
With everything i am
But please come back to me
And hold me where I stand ..

Memories Play a Confusing Role

You left me not too long ago
And yet it seems like forever,
I reminisce the day you left all this time
Because I was right there beside you..

I can't seem to get over the feelings I had,
At that very moment I felt so alone,
It grew cold in the room
That I lost all feelings and sense..

All I had was pure silence and disbelief,
I saw people moving towards you all around me
And yet I couldn't move a step towards you,
I couldn't distinguish my emotions
Because I wasn't sure of them..

I felt soo much anger and sadness, but I couldn't cry
At that moment I wasn't sure what was wrong,
And now a year & a half later it all comes back to me
Every tear I held in falls, and now I can't seem to stop..

I've realized how much I missed you
And how much I've needed you here
But there is no way for me to reach out for your touch.
I feel so alone right now,
That I just wish you could take me with..

Dont Cry At My Funeral

I'm going far away, to another place,
People are gloomy,
They bring flowers to adorn my grave,
All of their faces clammy,
With tears and perspiration,
Dressed in white,

I look from above and feel immensely sad.
How can my people do this to me?
How can they spoil my happiest moment?
I wonder indignantly,

I wanna run through the door,
And meet all the people I wanted to meet
All the people I was always fascinated with,
I wanna ask them about their thoughts and ideas,
How they feel about their life, after death..

Skate on the rings of Saturn,
Sink in deep oceans, never to return,

I wanna look over my near and dear,
Observe who really mourned me,
And who rejoiced my eternal sleep,
I wanna cry over others' pain,
Without being irritated by worried eyes,

I am moving to another world,
Much bigger than this one,
Much more beautiful and ..


One Last Thought, One Last Motion,One Last Heart Beat,I Breath One Last Breath My Eyes Are Closed as I leave With Death ..

I am not afraid of dying

It's not so easy to stop from screaming, But words escape me when I try to speak,
Tears they flow but why am I Crying?After all I am not afraid of dying..

Don't believe that there never is an end, I know that I'm alone, It's me and Myself and Nobody else

One Day I Will Be All Yours

You didn't live to see my face
And I wonder what you were like
You would've been a few years older
But you didn't get to live a life

I didn't get to meet you
Because you had a disease from birth
I wasn't even born
When you were taken off the earth

I didn't get to learn who you were
Don't know if you were gonna be smart
But even though you are in heaven
You hold a big chunk of my heart

I think about you each day
When I wake up and go to sleep
And though we have no memories
My thoughts about you, I keep

I would've loved to meet you
But I know that that won't happen
I guess I'll just have to wait
Until I meet you in heaven ..

Would You Walk with Me Forever

Would you walk With me through the Months and years,through laughs and tears,through dreams Through Fears,Dont break my heart for it would shatter like mirrors,so would you walk with me,through it all..

We'll rise and fall,my feelings building up like walls dont break them down,just take my hand
and dont let go,Hold it tight with all you know,Now Lets Walk ..

You Were Only Made For Me

I can't take this anymore
what is the point?
everytime a get close to you
you walk away and take no blame

its all your fault a feel this way
there's nothing left to do or say
i loved you with all my heart
but you just tore me apart

ive never felt this way
every about someone
i just feel like walking
and taking the gun

put it striaght to my head
hopefully end up dead
but im not letting you win
this is all just a sin

you've taken my soul
but soon again a will be whole
to love my life once more
i can now walk out the door

i'll just put you in the past
i should of known it wouldn't last
but at least now im free
i can live life happily ...

I Dont Cry For the Past

Even though u have your times
Times were u r negative
Times were u doubt
Times when u say stuff u don't mean to say
Don't cry

I will always be there for u
I may get mad
But not for long
I never can be mad at some1 as amazing as u
Don't cry

I'm sorry for getting upset with u
During those times
I will always be by your side
Don't cry

I need you like the wolf needs the moon to guide it threw the night
Without the moon
The wolf would be lost
Blind
No where to go
Don't cry

The moon may eclipse on the wolf
But the wolf will wait it out n stay strong
We may have our eclipse like the wolf
That eclipse only last for so long
Just remember when that moon comes back
I will be there waiting for u to make it full again
Don't cry !

A Painful Night Without You

I touch you as I feel your head brushing your hair from your face

Gathering the emotions building inside of me

One thought of commitment one thought of faith

How much I love you how much I feel your pain

All the memories of our short togetherness

Lingers in my mind as I feel warmth inside

I kiss your forehead trying to make myself strong

For what a difficult time it seemed

After the brief pleasure of being with you all the time

I feel so lost to loose you right now

These were my thought what I had that time

How I had thought it would be so wrong

How it seems to be so right after all

Better as I am after the horror of my dreams

Thinking if I really had to leave u

Did I really have to make that sacrifice?

Stepping on my emotions

Choosing loneliness after all that happiness..

Pleasureable Pain

Meri TakmeeL Abhi Or Bikher ker hogi,
Subah hogi mgr Raat Guzer ker Hogi ..

Tujse Milne ki khuShi mein Yeh Ehsas na Raha,
Kitni Takleef Tujse Bicher ker Hogi ..

After Me ..

After Me ..

When I will not be here,When i will be gone forever,When i will be dead,Just Come to My Grave,Dont Cry ..

Just put Some Wild Flowers Beside me,Sit along the Yard for Few Moments,Talk to me,Cheer Me up ..

Remember the Times When We Were Together,When We Were Friends,Listen To My Quiet Reply..

Enjoy Those Moments , Try to understand the Unsaid Words & Consider How Much You still Mean To Me :)

Why Me ?

Sitting against the wall,
Pressing hands to ears,
Blasting music,
Rocking back and forth,

Asking,
Why me,
Why me,
Why me?

Why can't I be with the one I love?
Why can I never be happy?
Why do I go through so much stress?
I just want to die at times.

I have good friends,
A few good choices,
They help me,
And I help them.

So why do I choose to ask these questions?
Why am I so unsure?
Am I not believing in my friends?
Or is it the depression?

True Love Lasts Forever

Love is an endless flow of passion
No one can feel it but you
No matter how many people say "I know how you feel"

They think they know but they have no idea
The wonders of falling in love with that special someone
The feeling you get when they tell you they love you

Once you've fallen in love you can't get back out
Like a ring that's too small for your finger
But you put it on anyway
It doesn't come off unless you break it

But if it's real silver it won't break
And if it's true love
It will never end..

The Way You Left Me...

Sometimes I Aches,For too Many Reasons to Acknowledge,

And..

SOmetimes I Cry,
Because the Ache Never Goes Away,
For a Reason,The Way You Left Me ..

~ Dedicated to NoBoDy ~

- Look I am all bleeding , Blood stained :(

Nowhere To Leave The Pain

Time has come and gone,
Through laughter and pain,
Our good times many,
And bad times few,

You may be gone,
But having your spirit around eases the pain,
Stories among many,
Bad stories among the few,

You held on for weeks while we prayed you wouldnt leave,
Then even all of it was gone including pain,
You taught me fear is bad,
But so long as you believe everything will be alright,

You once told me once you left to listen to the wind,
And when I was lonely just listen,
So now here I sit,
I listen, but hear nothing,

Then one day I heard you whisper and then it rang,
Pain forgotten,
Lessons many,
Crying few,
Now all I got left of you is the whisper in the wind ..

We Loved To Create Memories

Your memories still haunt me
For i'm still not over you
It's no easy to forget
For it used to be so true

These memories are my hope now
Yes they are my reason
They push me forward in my life
In any kind of season

And when i feel all betrayed
I go back to the times
When everything was so well
As the early sunrise

When joy moved to my heart
Like willing to stay
But before i realized
You were walking away

Your memories still haunt me
For i cant get over you
And i want no one else
It'll never get that true ..

Words Cant Describe How I feel

Will I ever be the same again
Will I ever get past all these lies
Will I ever open my eyes
And see that you are nothing
Nothing but lies

Will I ever be able to cry again
Will I ever be able to love again
Will I ever be able to sing again
Will I ever be free again

Free of your lies
Free of your seduction
Free of your lips
Pressed against my unwilling lips...

Do you want to seduce me
Into doing what you may?
Nay, I say, I will not fall
I will not let you take over
While I lose it all

And when I am lieing on the floor
Screaming for air
Losing my mind
And crying out for help
You just stand there smiling

Do you enjoy my pain?

Please :(

Mene her rOz Dua meIn tuJe manGa heY,
Hun beWafa mGr Wafa Sey Tuje Manga hey ~

KbI SaJde meIn Ja ker Puchna apne rab Sey ,
Mene kIs kIs ada Sey tuje Manga Hey ~








- Waiting for a Chance to come up , the Day I will Get You Forever in My life , i know I will, NoBody!

I wish I was Dreaming

I wish I was dreaming,
When I heard the word "No."
I wish I was dreaming,
The day I let you go.

I wish I was dreaming,
That time I did you wrong.
I wish I was dreaming,
The moment I knew I didn't belong.

I wish I was dreaming,
When I continued knowing what I knew,
I wish I was dreaming,
The day I professed my love to you.

Because you never smiled back,
Nor did you even wave.
I just wish I was dreaming,
When I saw my grave ..

The Day You loved Me

Loving was something I ran from
Trusting was something that didn't come easy.

Being myself was something I could never do
Faking a smile was something that came naturally.

Hating myself was something I could not hide
Being free was something that seemed so far away.


Wishing was something I learned didn't come true..

Everything was just so fake to me.
I was a stranger to myself.
But that all changed in one quick heartbeat.
When you said you loved me..

Why Does this Happen in Love?

Why does this happen in love?

In exchange for faith, why does a person not receive faith?

In exchange for prayer, why does a person not receive prayer?

In exchange for joy, why does a person not receive joy?

Why does this happen in love?

How much will love cause you to cry!

It will make you forget the whole world.

It will increase your anxiety; you won't know one moment of peace.

What people become in love and from what!

Sometimes you come together only to be separated.

In this spring, you find only an autumn.

Life ends while you're still waiting.

In exchange for laughter, why is a person not given laughter?

In exchange for faith, why does a person not receive faith?

This moment doesn't linger.

No watch is mounted over memories.

When one's wound does not heal even with medicine,

imagine what someone might do in such a state..

When You Look Into My Eyes

When you look into my eyes..
what do you see?

When you look into my eyes..
what is it that brings you close to me?

..is it the love i have for you?..
or is it just me?..

When you look into my eyes..
what does it make you think of when you are near me?

When you look into my eyes..
What do you want from me?

When you look into my eyes..
why do i always get a feeling that you are always going to be with me?

When i look into your eyes i see myself there..

... when i look into your eyes i feel so free

I feel You are My One True Love

Happiness is when we feel completed
Being in love is no longer feeling defeated
What I wish for is the world to be like you
Sweet, gentle, caring and true

Now you are gone, my world is incomplete
I hope one day I will meet
Someone who can make time stand still
I hope they can make me feel

The way you made me
You set my heart free
Of course no one could replace you
My one true love will always be you..

You were made just unforgetable

Jita b Usko sochun Utna he door paun
Jitna b Usko chahon khud he bikharta Jaun,

Mein Aam Sa Musafir be-aas,be-sahara
Wo door kahin basta aasmaan ka tara,

Mein Rait sey Ulajthi Sehraoon ki hawa Hoon
Wo sahilon peY chalta bad-e-saba ka jhonka,

Haan farak tu bhut hey,
per Baat yeh Fakat hai .. ?

Mein lakh toot jaun
Khud sey he rooth Jaun,

Per Yeh na h0ga Mujse ..
k,Mein usk0 bhul jaun..

God had made you for me , i ever thought as if you were an angel sent from Allah just for me , But I never know you will be gone forever,but forever seems very short because you were made just UNFORGETABLE :)